There comes a point in everyone's life when there's an urgent need to seek justice, to hold entities accountable for the anguish they've caused. At times, you might find yourself gazing at the myriad clouds of grief, nursing a strong desire for vindication against those who've wronged you. Let me walk you through my personal quest for justice and how I've sought solace in the legal system, even when it didn't offer the comfort I yearned for. 

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Imagine this scenario. You've sustained an excruciating experience of sciatica, an injury potentially linked to B & Q's negligence. You're also wrestling with a false diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia from an entity responsible for ensuring your mental wellness, the Mental Health Services. And what about the unforgivable betrayal by the Metropolitan Police, who shrouded your past works in secrecy, leading to a grave misconception about your mental state?

 

When justice seems distant, remember that every endeavor towards it is a significant stride towards a fair world.

 

Let's dive into my narrative, looking at how these organizations could have altered their ways, potentially altering my life's trajectory. Regrettably, the road to justice is often barricaded by legal protections that are designed to shield the wrongdoers rather than the true victim. But that doesn't mean we can't voice our concerns. It is, after all, my story to tell.

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I want to shed light on those who have, willingly or unwisely, caused me harm and injustice. B & Q - a notable name in the home improvement industry, for instance, holds responsibility for the throbbing sciatica that has become an unwelcome aspect of my daily life. Their accountability is not unfounded. An improperly designed work environment, lacking in ergonomics, was primarily the cause – but they've remained untouched, as if impunity is their rightful shield. The best part is that the GP never even kept accurate records on the potential sciatica making it appear as though there was no complaint at all when there definately was. My medical records of late are not to the acceptable standard required for evidence at Court. I must lower my bow with B & Q and try to forget the damage they did to my back, that is British Justice right there for you.

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Let's consider another contender in this lineup, Mental Health Services. A healthcare institute? Yes, surprising, isn't it? Their wrongful diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia was a blow that knocked my life off course. Imagine being branded as something you're not – an anguish only the wrongfully accused can comprehend. In reality, I was suffering from post-traumatic stress, a by-product of my secret work for the Metropolitan Police. 

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So, what about the Metropolitan Police? A reputable force serving and protecting the city's inhabitants should surely bear responsibility for their part in this narrative. Their failure to disclose evidence of my undercover work to the forensic unit denied me of my legitimately-titled diagnosis. However, such an admission would have necessitated them acknowledging their failure, something institutions like these seldom concede. 

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As we navigate through these shadows of legal impunity, we realize the true cost of unchecked power and the denial of due diligence. But remember, even if the law may fail us at times, our personal narration cannot be silenced. It's our resolve, strengthened in adversity, that ultimately brings about the long-awaited reckoning.

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In my quest for justice, my starting point was holding B & Q accountable. They crucially directed the issue to their legal team who seemed more concerned about deflecting blameworthiness rather than accepting it. They acted speedily on the medical disclosures, delving deep into my past health records. Their harsh truth emerged - that there was no recorded trace of sciatica during my stint at B & Q and no corresponding injury-related documentation during my tenure contrary to the actual evidence.

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While it's beyond my understanding why my employer didn't document my injury, it's a matter they'll have to grapple with. It's undeniable that, due to severe leg pains, I sought assistance from my doctors on July 26, 2019. Although it took the NHS more than three years from this date to diagnose my sciatica, restrictions and delays were mainly related to the COVID lockdown and intermittent periods of incarceration, during which I was barred from availing NHS treatment. None of these circumstances were in my control. Despite all this, I was shocked to learn from potential solicitors that my chance of winning a lawsuit against B & Q is null due to the three-year limit since the initial injury. Sometimes you just need to walk away and hey these people may have violated me in my employment with them but this is a case led by a one legged donkey, and I will not let that be me.

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Unfortunately, it's not surprising to find B & Q and their legal team shirking their responsibilities, considering the skewed laws we live under that always seem to side with businesses. Here in the UK, it's as though people exist solely as a labour force to be exploited—a mentality that's been part and parcel of this nation's viewpoint. Still, there's a glint of optimism on the horizon - the potential to pursue an Industrial Disease Benefit claim. While its success remains uncertain, I'm committed to forging ahead in the slim hope of ensuring this unscrupulous employer, B & Q, faces some form of accountability within the confines of the benefits system. As it transpired in the end I did not qualify for any Industrial Disease Benefit at all.

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Even my long-standing grudge against NHS couldn't escape my pursuit of justice, especially for their deeply regrettable misdiagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia they casually marked me with at Runwell Hospital. All while my condition was, in fact, indicative of a version of post-traumatic stress, perhaps. I knocked at the doors of numerous legal firms, hoping for a sympathetic ear. Unsurprisingly, their responses echoed each other's. They argued that the NHS couldn't be legally held responsible, given the elapsed timeframe; my claim, in their eyes, was outdated. Oh the bitter irony! Yet another institution that had wronged me was seemingly invincible, protected by the shield of time's passage.

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In addition, they remain unwavering in their diagnosis, despite clear evidence to the contrary. As a result of the medication they prescribed, I now suffer from audio hallucinations - an affliction they label paranoid schizophrenia. Their negligence is a scar, yet they find refuge behind the United Kingdom's immunity provisions. It's staggering how the judicial infrastructure leans towards safeguarding those who arguably caused the harm instead of exploring my grievances. This reality underscores a disturbing societal imbalance, where individuals are treated more as expendable commodities rather than esteemed citizens.

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In my continued quest for retribution, I turn my attention towards the Metropolitan Police, who are equally elusive in terms of accountability because of the time that has lapsed. It leads me to believe that justice in the UK is elusive or perhaps more accurately, an illusion. The system, while presenting itself as fair and equitable, generally appears to favor businesses within its scope rather than the individuals seeking justice. Thus, justice in the UK can often feel like nothing more than a well-orchestrated charade.

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It's a fact of life many of us have come to accept: there are times when it feels like the institutions designed to protect and serve us seem to do the exact opposite. Tales abound of organisations causing more harm than good, providing support only on paper while in reality falling startlingly short of what is required. This is a story about how my trust was betrayed by three such organizations. 

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But let's not stop there: mental health is a serious issue, demanding sincerity and diligence from those making diagnoses. When I approached the Mental Health Services for help, they slapped me with a diagnosis of paranoid schizophrenia. It's OK though, they lost all the medical records so cannot say at all why I was even diagnosed with paranoid scizophrenia when I presented myself to them with symptoms of brain damage that they ignored and hey ho all along brain damage it was. For near on twenty years I have been taking mediation for a condition I never had but now do thanks to Clozaril. So, instead of ever treating the brain damage they treated me for a condition I never had but now do. This is Mental Health Services in the NHS in 21st Century Britain and this is how they are treating your loved ones. Not once have I had help with my brain damage symptoms, they see it as a symptom of the paranoid schizophrenia that I never really had to start. Can anyone reading this see why I have zero trust for the NHS whom should be the bigger person and put their hands up when they're wrong, not go hiding medical records to save your asses. 

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The Mental Health Services owe me two written apologies, one from Dr Holmes and the other from Dr Dein and they should acknowledge their wrongs to me so that I can try to rebuild my life. I do not care about how short staffed you are or anything, I will always remember how I was not welcomed to have an opinion on my own care and my own needs. You all knew better and this is the mess you've created.

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The Metropolitan Police – a force supposedly in place to uphold justice – actively failed me when it mattered the most. Instead of providing vital information about my work with them to the forensic unit, they remained silent. Such critical knowledge of my past could have led to a correct diagnosis, potentially saving me the unnecessary torment that came with a false one. 

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This tale isn't one of petty revenge. It's about seeking justice using the same legal system meant to protect us. But alas, often these organizations are shielded by legal protections, leaving the victims high and dry. It's unjust but it's the harsh reality we live in. The question remains: will there ever be a recourse for those wronged by such institutions? Only time will tell.

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There comes a moment in life when one is faced with the enormous task of moving forward. An internal tug-of-war ensues, where a vital choice must be made: is it wiser to stay stuck in the past, holding onto grudges, or find the strength to progress into the future, releasing all vengeance? 

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You see, it's a universal fact, not all collisions in life are fatal. Some merely shake you, challenge your faith, test your limits, and eventually, reinforce your strength. But it's how you respond to these trials that define your journey ahead. 

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Negative experiences with organizations or entities, such as B & Q, Mental Health Services, or the Metropolitan Police, might stir up emotions of resentment. It's easy to feel victimized, to yearn for retribution and vindication. But, it's important to remember, even when you feel let down, that vengeance isn't the answer. 

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Seeking restitution from these entities might seem like the perfect solution to your problems. You might perceive it as a just answer to the agony borne out of misdiagnosis or sheer negligence on their part. But, has this obsession for revenge not been a constant impediment to enjoying your present, and in turn, embracing the beauty of the future?

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Consider for a moment, the real cost of your resentment. Consider the strain it puts on your relationships, professional growth, mental peace, and overall well-being. Is it really worth it? 

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Now, visualize a different narrative. A narrative of acceptance, of letting go. Imagine a reality where these organizations are not the villains in your storyline, but merely part of the greater journey designed to strengthen you, sculpt you into a resilient entity capable of not just surviving but thriving amidst challenges. 

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The thought of moving on isn't a naive aspiration. It's not about absolving these entities of the repercussions of their actions. It's about you choosing to live beyond the confines of resentment. It's about you nurturing a more nurturing, liberating perspective on life. 

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Transcending this river of vengeance might not be easy, but you possess the strength to do it. Evaluate what matters more: a past filled with grudges or a future filled with happiness? Let go of the past and live in the future, the future defines you not your past.

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There are certain junctures in life when we find ourselves at odds with the world, feeling that we've been wronged by those we believed would have our back. However, there's a power in letting go and moving on. When you focus on grievances, it can feel like life's turned into a battle, but shift your perspective and consider it an opportunity for transformation. 

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Acceptance is the first step towards a new beginning. Accept the fact that some organizations failed you. Understand that their alleged mistakes were not a direct assault on your character. This chapter of your life might have been a tumultuous one, but it does not define your entire narrative. 

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Consider the case of a dispute with a company like B & Q. Perhaps you feel they should bear the responsibility for your physical ailments. But let's look at it this way - could it be that externalizing the blame is giving away your power to heal? Consider taking control by seeking professional medical opinion, trying physical therapy, and adopting a lifestyle that promotes healing. 

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In situations involving mental health issues, it is important to remember that there are numerous factors contributing to these conditions, many of which are beyond the purview of any specific organization. It might be that the diagnosis you received does not fit your situation - Paranoid Schizophrenia versus Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder and/or Brain Damage. Always remember that diagnoses are merely a tool for understanding one's mental state and are not one-size-fits-all. It's crucial to seek second or third opinions from qualified professionals if necessary and be open to different therapeutic approaches. 

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And, when you've found yourself failed by those who were meant to protect you, like the Metropolitan Police, it can create a deep sense of bitterness. But rather than harboring resentment, try to channel this energy into making the system better. Let your experiences serve as a catalyst - campaign for awareness, volunteer with support groups, or advocate for policy changes. Remember, turning your adversity into advocacy can be a long-lasting source of healing and personal growth. 

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Recall that the legal system is not a magic wand for revenge. While it can provide a platform for redressal, it's not always going to stack in your favor. Understand that in many cases entities such as these enjoy certain legal protections. Instead, consider employing the legal system as a tool for justice, not vengeance. In the grand scheme of things, what will truly make you stronger and more resilient is not the outcome of a lawsuit, but how you rise and adopt your life in the aftermath. 

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Ultimately, remember that embracing forgiveness, even though enormously challenging, can become a step towards self-liberation. Trust in the adage that "living well is the best revenge". Redirect your efforts towards nurturing yourself and building a robust future. Because in the end, it is you who matters the most. 

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I am at a crucial juncture in my journey where a transformation is necessary, starting with my given name, Michael Steven Barrett. You see, 'Steven,' my middle name, serves as nothing more than a bleak reminder of a tormented past. Just hearing it echoes the screams of my childhood tormentors, who ironically named themselves 'Stephen'. Though the spelling may vary, the resonance it creates within me remains the same. 

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Moreover, my relentless analysis of the name 'Steven' has led me to its translation as 'Saint Even', a cryptic suggestion perhaps, to retaliate against society's evildoers and bring about a balance of sorts. This perspective, however, has been far from rewarding, leading me instead down the dark corridors of prison. 

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Hence, with a resolve as firm as a mountain, I discard this debilitating moniker. The time has come for a total departure from the burdens it carries, to embrace a new identity which fosters growth and liberation.

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What name should I, after all these years, claim as my own? In times of prayer, in that sacred space behind the Royal Oak, a divine revelation was bestowed upon me, anointing me with the name Ezare. Quietly etched in the recesses of my consciousness, it's a name that resonated with my spirit. Henceforth, let the world identify me as Michael Ezare Barrett - a moniker endorsed by the divine. Isn’t this, after all, the way it was always meant to be?

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Adopting my new identity, I consciously decide to forsake the path of revenge, a path that only breeds further hatred and an incessant cycle of suffering. My fight will no longer be a physical one, with the rage of a vengeful sword, but a mental struggle, a quest for justice. Reaching out beyond the convention of vengeance, I aim to shake off society's filth by shedding light on their deserving labels, rather than resorting to direct conflict.

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As I lay down the gauntlet of retribution, my target isn't an individual, but rather institutions known for their authoritative influence. Key among these are corporations like B & Q, whose disregard for workers' safety has left me suffering from sciatica. Instead of escaping without any accountability, I desire that they bear the consequences and cover the expenses associated with my medical condition. 

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Next in line is the Mental Health Services. Their misdiagnosis labeling me as a paranoid schizophrenic is not only grossly false, but also awfully detrimental. It is my contention that they should be held responsible for such harmful blunders. 

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The Metropolitan Police, another institution, has immensely failed to serve its purpose in my life. Despite my service to them, they fell short in their duty, possibly withholding crucial information about my work history from the forensic unit. Had they exercised greater transparency, I believe the diagnosis would have been post-traumatic stress disorder, thus drastically altering the course of my life. 

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However, my pursuit for legal redress seems to be a fruitless endeavor. These organizations hide behind layers of legal protection, effectively shielding them from their infringement upon my life. Despite the odds, I cling onto the rays of hope that someday justice will be served. 

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The Holy Bible offers multiple perspectives on the concept of vengeance, mainly emphasizing its place as divine rather than human prerogative. One of the most quoted scriptures, found in Romans 12:19 says, "Vengeance is mine; I will repay, saith the Lord." This verse suggests a call towards forgiveness and patience, granting authority over vengeance to the divine. 

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Another notable scripture, found in Proverbs 20:22, advocates for a similar approach: "Do not say, 'I will repay evil'; Wait for the LORD, and He will save you." Here, the text highlights the need for patience and trust in God’s justice, and the belief in divine retribution. 

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Matthew 5:38-39 talks about the well-known principle of "turning the other cheek". "You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.' But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If someone strikes you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also." In this section, Jesus Christ himself advices against seeking personal revenge, showing immense grace and mercy in the face of adversity. Instead, it encourages non-retaliation and extending kindness to those who have caused harm. 

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In conclusion, the Holy Bible, across various books, speaks to the theme of revenge, enforcing the belief that vengeance should be left to God, not sought by man. The Scriptures promote patience, forgiveness, and the choice of love over retribution.

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Yet, there's a remarkable allure to the idea of exacting vengeance against the entities that seemingly caused harm in our lives. One might feel compelled to make B & Q pay the price for their believed contribution to the onset of sciatica. Or perhaps, it's Accountability Mental Health Services that one holds responsible for a perceived misdiagnosed case of paranoid schizophrenia. 

 

In such circumstances, some individuals turn to the Metropolitan Police for support, only to feel gravely let down. They argue that perhaps, had they been forthcoming about past work affiliations, the diagnosis would have shifted towards post-traumatic stress. These notions of systemic failures fuel the desire for vengeance, to hold these institutions liable using the legal route. 

 

Unfortunately, the bitter truth is that these organizations often enjoy an umbrella of legal protection, seemingly invincible against the charges mounted on them. So, where does this leave us? It's almost like predisposed failure in a battle against high towers of authority and the unraveling realization can indeed be disheartening. 

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However, let's not forget that this is just one Key in the grand novel of my book of life. As referenced earlier, even the Holy Bible preaches about opting for patience, forgiveness, and love over retribution. Maybe it's about time to turn the page, seeking better days in the chapters to come. The dark cloud of vengeance may hover for a while, but remember, every story has its share of sunshine too.

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Romans 12:19 - "Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: 'It is mine to avenge; I will repay,' says the Lord." 

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Matthew 5:38-39 - "You have heard that it was said, 'Eye for eye, and tooth for tooth.' But I tell you, do not resist an evil person. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to them the other cheek also." 

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Proverbs 20:22 - "Do not say, 'I'll pay you back for this wrong!' Wait for the Lord, and he will avenge you." 

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1 Thessalonians 5:15 - "Make sure that nobody pays back wrong for wrong, but always strive to do what is good for each other and for everyone else." 

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Colossians 3:13 - "Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you."

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• Surah Al-Baqarah 2:190 - "Fight in the way of Allah those who fight you but do not transgress. Indeed. Allah does not like transgressors." This verse emphasizes that even in self-defense, transgression, which can include acts of revenge, is not permitted. 

• Surah Ash-Shura 42:40 - "And the retribution for an evil act is an evil one like it, but whoever pardons and makes reconciliation - his reward is [due] from Allah. Indeed, He does not like wrongdoers." This verse highlights that while retribution is allowed, forgiveness and reconciliation are preferable and rewarded by Allah.

• Surah An-Nahl 16:126 - "And if you punish [an enemy, O believers], punish with an equivalent of that with which you were harmed. But if you are patient - it is better for those who are patient." Here, patience and restraint are encouraged over revenge.

• Surah Al-Imran 3:134 - "Who spend [in the cause of Allah] during ease and hardship and who restrain anger and who pardon the people - and Allah loves the doers of good." This verse commends those who control their anger and forgive others, emphasizing that such actions are beloved by Allah.

• Surah Fussilat 41:34 - "And not equal are the good deed and the bad. Repel [evil] by that [deed] which is better; and thereupon the one whom between you and him is enmity [will become] as though he was a devoted friend." It suggests that responding to evil with good can transform enemies into friends.

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Recognizing when to step back is a skill in its own right; legal conflicts can be utterly consuming. However, I will persist in holding the London Borough of Bullies in Dagenham accountable for their ongoing violations. They seem to operate as if they are untouchable by the law and it is the law that is the only thing that can put such people in their place.

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Face of Revenge by Michael Ezare Barrett

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Revenge, a fleeting balm for souls so scarred,
An ember that ignites the heart so hard.
Its fire, deceptive in its promise bold,
Whispers of a peace that cannot hold. 

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For in the echoes of a vengeful cry,
Lies an emptiness that won't deny.
The sweetness of that moment's fleeting high,
Soon turns to ash and leaves you asking why. 

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Justice sought through hatred's keen edge,
Is but a shadow, a precarious ledge.
It sinks beneath the weight of what was lost,
Revealing not reward, but bitter cost. 

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Though satisfaction appears at first so near,
It's an illusion built on pain and fear.
True peace lies not in settling old scores,
But in letting go, opening new doors.